Dawn Schafer

I'm in California! It feel so good to be back in my old room, knowing that my family is just down the hall. Jeff is out with friends and Gracie is already sleeping but still, it's nice to have the window open and have warm air blowing in. Every time I leave Palo City and come back, I forget home much I love this place. I hung out with Sunny tonight. We made a bond fire on the beach and caught up and I played the guitar. It just felt right. It's going to be really hard to go back to Stoneybrook in a few days. So right now I'm just going to focus on being home sweet home!

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Happy Birthday, Mary Anne! I hope you have an amazing day!

I kissed a girl tonight. I really did and I liked it. I don't really know how to feel about it. I'm thinking about the relationship I've had in the past and my thoughts towards girls... I might have been just drunk. I don't think it meant anything. I mean, I barely remember much last night, except I drank way too much, I danced and I kissed a beautiful girl named Greer.

I don't think it meant anything. I don't really think I want to, like, date her or be her girlfriend or anything. I'm not really sure what I want but... I don't know. I just thought I should write this down.

I miss standing on the beach, feeling the sand between my toes. I miss the waves washing up against my feet and legs. I miss the California weather and breezes. I miss Sunny and Ducky and Amalia. I know that Maggie is here. I know Stacey is here and Mary Anne but I feel out of place. I miss my home but I know this was the right choice. This is the place I am suppose to be.

I think I'm just waiting for things to happen to me. It's time for me make my own excitement. I haven't seen the BSC together in a long while. I should talk to Mary Anne to see if it's a good idea to have us all together again. It would be nice to have a sleep over, pizza toasts and just talk before we enter college. I'm sure Mary Anne will agree it's a wonderful idea.

I should also make plans with Maggie to hang out with her. I am not going to wait for things to come to me anymore.

I'm home now and I'm so jet lagged. I don't think I'll quite get used to the time change.

So is anything going on this week in Stoneybrook? Does anyone know about any places where I can listen to indie music? and maybe play?

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Well. I'm all packed. My room looks pretty bared. I'm leaving for Stoneybrook this weekend to spend the rest of the summer with them and then it's off to the dorms at Stoneybrook University. I don't even really think there is a point to unpack once I get to the farmhouse.

When I made my decision to go to SU, at first I thought it was because of Mary Anne. I thought I was going so we could go back to being really close step-sisters again and so we can be roommates at university. Now I know I'm going there for me. I miss Stoneybrook and while I'm going to miss the sun and the sand, I know it's time to return to my East Coast home for a while. Besides, I'll be back here in the summer.

Now I'm just excited. I'm excited about the future and what it will bring. I'm excited about meeting new people and having new experiences. I really can't wait for September.

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It's only a few days until Annie and Logan's party. The invitations have been sent out and I hope it goes off well. I've planned everything to a "T" so I can't see how it wouldn't go bad but I can't control people so who knows what will happen?

I am nervous for other reasons. I haven't really seen a lot of these people since high school. What if I suddenly turn into that Dawn Scafer again? I've grown leaps and bounds since then and I don't want to become a wallflower again.

Maybe that's just it. I know who I am now. I'm not questioning who I am anyway. I was finding myself then and know, at least, I have an idea of who I am. I've been here in New York for almost a month. I'm settled in. There is no more excuses to get out there and live. This party may be for my sister and Logan but that doesn't mean I can't use this as an opportunity.

Besides, if I don't, I'm pretty sure Casey will come down and force me out. Not that it would be a bad thing. I miss her. I can't see that as a bad thing but maybe before the party, I'll call up one of the old BSC girls. If I get all the last minute party things done!